Lemie’s Valentine’s Day After-shock
They say that “Actions speak louder than words” but what if you’re in the case of what I call “Long Distance Affection” (LDA). Now how can you express your feelings to someone you like? Verbally or not, this is indeed a problem (or you’re making a problem).
In segway, February 14 is such a day for me. Well, my supposed-to-be tasks were wholly broken. What I mean is that the overall outcome of this day worked out the other way around. I remember what Archie said in the hit comic-book Archie (Double-Digest): “Sometimes you get your wish but it’s not all what it’s cracked up to be.” Like for example, in that very day, I wanted to play computer games, yeah, I was playing but I’m not supposed to be playing Dance Battle Audition that day OR I was supposed to play that game for I’m going to get married (oh shucks, it’s just a game). Indeed, I was in a room of love and marriage but I’m just in Watch Mode o_0. How do you like that? It’s quite appalling! All I get from the other side is nothing but QUAINT FLATTERY! In which, flattery is defined as “cheap praise” by professionals.
I was so disappointed that very day – Valentine’s Day; except for the fact that I spent 5 hours in front of the computer at my favorite place GMick. Yeah, that pc rental is the best! It’s just almost 1and a half blocks away from my place. Back to the topic, at least, I get to spend Valentine’s Day in my very own traditional way. Good thing that I got someone to talk to on the other line (telephone) while facing some disappointments through text-messages. In addition, I’m also glad that someone called me. Woooh, now that’s a matter indeed! If you’re reading this, thanks dude, you spiced up that day though I never thought you would o_0.
Just before my Valentine’s Day, someone even sort of, (errr…) said that HE LIKES ME! I know, I know, what did I do? I’m not even doing anything to you and you like me? (Inaano ba kita ha?). It’s just another one of those “Magnetized Being.” Crap, forget about it.
Mostly, Valentine’s Day is just another ordinary day of indulgent with my DEAREST computer. Oh, my date is none other but COMPUTER. Yes, I love computers. I hope that you love me too (LOL). Prepare to go BOOM!
So what really happened that day anyway? According to what I’ve recorded in my journal:
“I am writing chunk by chunk (The Valentine Suicide). I thought that I’m buckled up already but no, I’m not. I am so wrong. I even split up with him by my foolish ‘ACCIDENTAL DESIRE’. I tried to split and then BOOM! I was soooo shocked.”
That’s it…o_0.
So why after-shock? Yeah, I got another dream again. It seemed so real (na naman!). This time, it’s not about a former admirer (no more lousy creeps!) but it’s about someone I admire (what the?). He called me twice, then BOOM! I woke up early in the morning and it’s really cold. It’s just a dream (goody-goody!). What matters is that I woke up and I was able to survive another cold night, while everyone’s worrying that they have no “hug-mate” to keep them warm (LOL). I don’t have to worry about that. Good thing there’s my doll Annika Elaine to enfold me but she’s not even hugging me back. Oh well, thanks to my goody-goody BLANKY (the blanket)!
Oh boy, I’m listening too much on pop and ballad songs that somehow, I get surprised to hear rock and heavy-metal songs (System of a Down!). Woooooh, I hope that I’ll get a great day. I still have some matters up-for-grabs. I’ll settle them by this week. Oh yeah, I bet I can. Besides, someone’s taking care of my dear ^_____^.
The Post-Valentine’s party at church (institute class) will be this Friday. I don’t want to attend. Me? Valentine’s Party? No way. Should I say that I am allergic to such and even some dance socials? I AM ONLY 17 YEARS OLD! It’s a woman’s preference-style so technically, I should be the one asking a guy for my partner (like a date? o_0). No way. I don’t want to do that. I am no display. I don’t want to go! Though, somehow, I wanted to. Why? Look at them go! Like I said, observing humans and understanding men and women is one of my goals (likewise..) it’s really amazing.
Anyway, I’m going to be dead from online games for the mean time. I’ll have a HIATUS. It’s because I ditched a lot of books and knowledgeable resources galore and the remaining weeks will be a bit busy for my brain. Oh yes, I want to be little-miss-brainy or little-miss-smarty-pants! So much for this online-game indulgence? I’m afraid so. I really need to snap out of it. So I’m buckled up now. I’m on the rear of the future. It’s time to get in front and I’ll ride my own merry-go-boom!
PLANS:
- Finish my story entitled “The Valentine Suicide”
- Compile my list of jargons and expressions.
- Make my mom and dad’s masquerade for their party.
- Finish my little sister’s project.
- Read, read, and read.
- Finish coloring my drawing (it’s been stagnant for months!)
- Make tutorial/graphics for ANIMESHARE (Yeah, it’s like I don’t know how to use PS anymore).
- My church matters! (Yeah, it’s fun ^^).
Wish me luck or do I need to PUSH MY LUCK? (Wammy wammy wammy!) Anyway, I don’t need luck, I need assistance. Thanks to the Almighty ^_^.
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